So although no one is ever going to read this probably, I need to get out all of my anger and confusion and more anger.

1. Im so mad that I dont have a real teaching job yet. Its been almost two years and Ive had a lot of experience subbing but I want a real teaching job. I want my own classroom. I want my own students. I want it all.

2. Im angry with E. She’s been my best friend since seventh grade and is the closest thing I have to a sister. I just hate that she always bails on plans on the day of. It makes me not want to make plans because how do I know that will go through? She was supposed to come to M’s party on Friday and her sister texted me around 8 saying that E had a stomach virus and couldnt come. Its understandable, but it happens a lot and its annoying. Also, I get annoyed with so much other stuff that she does… shes spending so much money on sending A to a fancy preschool when she’s not making money to really pay for it. And shes going to school to become a teacher, which is fine but that’s four years of schooling and theres no teaching jobs right now… I just think she should get a job that she can makie money doing. I dont know… I know its not my place and Im not in that position, but I just tihnk that I would want to make money and be stable…

3. Im annoyed with R & J. They are saying that The Burn Project is “Rachels new band” when its really just the Saturday night band… Mikes not even in the band, hes just doing sound, but its still annoying. I hate when people take over things, especially when theres a couple involved. Thats what M & B did… and thats why I made sure everyone had the password and everything for the fan page.

One Rave: I just got a tutoring job…. so the next few weeks will be full of work work work: Subbing, Pub, Fashion Bug, Tutoring. Craziness. But I am broke broke broke and this sound help out a lot. Thank you God.

Whats your middle name?  Lynn

How big is your bed?  Queenie

What are you listening to right now?  Some TV show. Trafficlight?

What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?  0012

What was the last thing you ate?  Sausage?

Last person you hugged?  MC

How is the weather right now? Cold very cold  

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?  Nana <3

What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex?  Height

Favorite type of Food.   Mexican!

Do you want children?  I think so

Do you drink?  Yep

Ever get so drunk you don’t remember the entire night?  Parts of it

Hair color?  8G Blonde

Eye colour?  Blue

Do you wear contacts/glasses?  Im supposed to!

Favorite holiday?  Christmas Eve

Favorite Season?  Fall

Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?  Surely

Last Movie you Watched?  Just Go With it

What books are you reading?  Bible & Something about a widow

Piercings?  Just ears

Favorite Movie?  Jurassic Park

Favorite college football Team?   Ehhhh

What were you doing before filling this out?  Facebook and TV

Any pets?  At Mommas house - 2 cats and a pup

Dogs or cats?  Dogs

Favorite Flower?  Not picky

Have you ever loved someone?  Yes. For the last 4 years

Who would you like to see right now?  Kate, chels, Erin

Have you ever fired a gun?  Yepppp

Do you like to travel by plane?  Yes

Right-handed or Left-handed?  Righty Tighty

If you could go to any place right now where would you go?  Beaccch

Are you missing someone?  MC is in the shower!

Do you have a tattoo?  Yeah. White ink… aka im a baby

Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?  Nope

Are you hiding something from someone?  Nope

ARE YOU 18?  Overrr it

WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?  MC!

DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?  Never

FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?  Work

WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?  Water bottles. Cell phone

GRILLED OR FRIED?  Grilled

WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?  I have no talents really

ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?  Only when I think of scary things lurking about

FAVORITE HANGOUT?  My apartment

3 THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT?   MC, Friends, music

FAVORITE SONG?  In my life - beatles

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?  Losing ones i love

ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?  Taker :(

WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?  

WHAT IS YOUR DADS MIDDLE NAME?  John

WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME?  

STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?  MC

FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?  Whats a shoawwww

WHO’S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?  Verizon

FIRST THING YOU’LL SAVE IN A FIRE?  photos

Whats your favorite color?  Blue

WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?  Cell phone

WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?  teacher

WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?   

THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?  Tan

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED? Everything I have to do the next day

Another snow day! Im starting to like the snow… it gives you an excuse to be lazy.

Today I subbed at the high school… I’m not a fan really. It’s easier in a way then doing the younger grades because you just give them their work and its up to them to do it or not do it… but Id rather actually teach the kids.

We only had a half day today which was very niceeee. Hopefully I get paid for a full day? That would be amazing Gracie. MC picked me up then we went to Friendlys. Chicken fingers and fries…. Friendlys fave meal. I came home and napped for two hours. It was a great 5-year old kinda day.

doing millions of cover letters

someone give me a job. i just want to teach your kids!

Miguel just called and is bringing home dinner dinner soon.

Should be home in a half hour or so.

Jumping on the tredmill now.

Christmas was awesome, as usual. On Christmas Eve we went to church and then to the people I babysit for. Then Christmas we opened gifts here ( I got a new laptop <3, a journal, some games, including BANANAGRAMS<3 <3 and some other nice things from MC. Then we went to Mike’s familys house to do gifts there and lay around and play Wii and eat dindin. It was verrrrry nice.’

So due to the snow we werent able to go down to SC for vacay. wah. i was excited but a little nervous to spend that much time with the fam… anyhow markel and I are spending time at home, having a staycation. Stu is home from CA so we got to see him last night and will prob see him tomorrow. Woop. I miss him tons and want him back to NJ/PA area.

Just booked the hotel room for New Years. Were going out by Katie and Chels, to Harrisburg. I’m anticipating lots of love, laughs and humping.